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apartment, that's actually really spacious- 1,720 sq ft, it's got vaulted ceilings, and a nice little loft which over looks the living room. We spend a lot of our time out on our little deck, just talking and laughing.
When I first moved here I was soooo home-sick, but, that finally seems to be getting better. I do really miss my friends and family, though. It's weird, I was a Navy brat and moved quite a bit when I was younger. I never really minded- I liked being the new girl, meeting new people, seeing new places, but, since I've been here I really haven't made any new friends. I don't really know why. I work with lots of people my age, we talk sometimes at work, we'll joke around a bit, but it's like they already have their "clique" established and there is no real room for expansion. The weird thing is that I haven't met anyone going out either.
I miss my friends. One of my friends only lives about 15 minutes away from me, but she's recently married, which isn't the main reason I don't see her often... We became friends when we were like 16 or so, we actually lived right next to eachother. After high school she went to the UW, I stayed at home and went to community college. We stayed in touch, but things were never quite the same. Her entire life she wanted to be a doctor- her main life goal. She never dated, she freaked out if she was even in danger of getting a A-. She was a dork, and I felt like I helped bring her out of her shell. I made her join the social groups I was apart of, I made her go to dances, I got her drunk for the first time! She did end up dating- and married the first guy she ever did date. He's nice enough, but even more dorky than she was when I first met her. They recently got into a business venture called Quixtar (Amway) and for those who don't know what it is- good, that means you've never had to suffer through a 4 hour "inspirational" business meeting. It's like a pyramid scheme- with a cultish following. Creepy. So, because everytime we hang out or talk she tries to get me to lace up new Nikes and drink cool-aid, we really don't spend much time together.
My best friend in the entire world is Crystal... she is great! We met when we were 15. I actually really didn't like her when I first encountered her. She was bitchy and constantly irritated, always making some rude remark- and then I realized that she was alot like me! For the first time we talked we knew we would be fast friends! We understand each other the way that happens maybe once in a lifetime- if you're lucky! She is about 5ft, beautiful brown eyes, and brown hair. In high school we were kind of referred to as Betty and Veronica. I was the sweet blond one and she was the bitchy brunette. People would ask me how I could be friends with her because she was so bitchy... but I saw something in her that I admired. We actually were a perfect match for each other. She taught me how to stand up for myself and I taught her how to be a bit kinder. Together we are the perfect woman. When we are together you know there's going to be trouble! We love hanging out- just the two of us, or going out to a bar and making all of the guys drool! We have a blast together!
I am going home without Adam this weekend. I haven't been home without him since before we moved out together in September. It will be nice. Not that I don't want to spend time with him, but when I'm at home I already feel a bit stretched thin- wanting to spend time with everyone in such a short amount of time, while also getting home with enough time to take care of the things I need to do at my house. When he's there with me I feel like I constantly need to make sure that he's not too bored, that he's having fun, that I'm spending enough time with him. He doesn't care, it's me. I just don't want him to feel left out. So, when I asked if he cared if I went home by myself this weekend he was like-"Yeah, go, have fun. Stay as long as you need to - and make sure you get to go out with Crystal- get drunk!" He's the best.
I think that Crystal probably needs to go out even more than I do right now. The last few months have been really hard for her. When we were seniors in high school she started dating this guy, Paul and right after graduation she moved in with him. They had a house, four dogs, 10 (no joke) cars, and two businesses together. They seemed to be "that" couple- the power couple that everyone envied. They hosted parties, set up other couples and were always a blast to hang out with. Paul was always the joker of the group, always making some dirty joke, or offering to get naked for someone who was having a bad day. We should have seen it coming. They were taking a few days apart, during a rough patch in their relationship, which sometimes happens, when Crystal learned that Paul had a)made out with a co-worker in their kitchen b) felt up my previously mentioned friend one night when she was drunk c)placed a hidden camera in their home, while on vacation, to spy on the 17 yr old girl who was house/dog sitting for them. So, as I mentioned, they have two businesses together, which made things really difficult for her. I know what you're thinking- just get out- right? Yeah, that's what I was thinking too. However, when you have literally built a life with someone that is easier said than done. She first confirmed these alligations, then started planning how to get out. Finally last week she ended it. It's been really rough on her, but I am sooo proud of her for doing it. So, this weekend is bound to be a really crazy one! If I remember (which I'm usually not so good at when drinking) I will try to take some pictures and post them with a new blog about our weekend.
Well, I've got tons more to say, however, I guess I should call it good for now. Trust me there will be plenty more coming!
Thanks for reading (if you did)!
~LMC
