Forgiveness
On the drive home from Florida after going through that ordeal with my family GOD impressed on my heart to forgive the Herbert's of this world and namely the one that took my nieces natural life. I fought it, cried about it, screamed about it and I've come to realize that unless I do this hard thing for GOD he will not forgive me for all my mishaps of life and he will then be ashamed of me for my denile and disbelief in his power of forgiveness and release from this natural life. I still resisted and then He told me that He was there when Bridget died and the plan was fulfilled and the hurt and pain Bridget and Herbert went through was over. I would be prejudice to think that only women are abused and that, I am not. Anyone can run, hide and be in disbelief with their past and what they have done but GOD will not forget it and someday all this that seems to be forgiven by the world will have to be explained and the eternal life is in jeopardy. No One can fool GOD. GOD then let me know that I will see Bridget one day when He returns and all those talks I had with her about Jesus the seed was planted. My sister and Bridget's sisters went and cleaned out her little trailer and they found the little Daily Bread books and they found no drugs, no alcohol. They found a normal home of woman that intended on coming back. I will not replace my GOD and the place he has for me in Heaven with all the Herberts of this world that has done wrong. I'm sorry but I am not ashamed to called a child of the KING and I will not jeapordize my GOD nor my Heaven for anyone. So when I got home I called my sister in Florida and told her this hard thing GOD has told my heart I had to do. She understood, however my neice Bridget's 14 year old son kept telling me,"How can you do this"? I told Bobby that I loved him and I understood what he's saying and although he may not understand now he will when he is older. Someday that all this we call ours, really isn't and the only thing we have to look forward to is Jesus's return. My spiritual life is the only valuable thing I can hold on to and the people I reach out to that maybe a seed is planted and Jesus will apply all the water to make the faith grow is forever and will never pass away.